In July 2011, just a couple weeks after writing my last entry, I met the perfect man -- R. Well, perfect for me. It's fascinating falling in love for the second time. I was so much more cautious; I wasn't looking for a relationship at all. I was comfortable being single. Our relationship didn't start like I thought a relationship should start when one meets the love of their life. It was a Friday night out with him and his best friend (who I had gone on a date or 2 with earlier that summer), we had way too much tequila, and his drunk kisses were awful. I had left my hoodie in his car that night, and that's the sole reason I agreed to go out on a date with him that Sunday, July 24. Well, that, and to reclaim some of my dignity ;). In fact, when I told my parents I was going on a date, they groaned "Another guy?," and I was being completely honest when I said "Don't worry, I'm just getting my hoodie back this time." So needless to say, It wasn't love at first site... but somehow it was better.
There was something about R that wasn't terrifying or intimidating. Perhaps that's because I saw so much of myself in him. We had so much in common. We were both the shy, socially awkward type, and that put me at ease. He and I bonded over how similar we were in terms of our study habits and work ethic. Nobody had ever understood me in that way before. Yet, I still was cautious about starting a relationship, especially after what had happened with the last guy. When R texted me right after the date asking to see me on Tuesday, I replied "sure, just promise you won't get all serious on me," and he assured me "don't worry, I wouldn't do that to you." Let's just say that was the best promise anyone has ever broken.
It turned out that R was a much better kisser when sober. And holy shit did I ever love kissing him. Even early on, I knew I would never get tired of his lips. Slowly, we got more and more comfortable around each other. Each time I saw him, my feelings for him would grow so much more. And I trusted him with my life.
Fast forward almost a year later...
I've never been so excited for a future with someone. I know without a doubt that this man will be by my side forever. I feel so lucky to have him, and it's the greatest feeling knowing you've found the person you want to spend your life with. I didn't think it was possible to have a relationship this perfect. A relationship without fights and arguments; a relationship where each partner appreciates the other so much, and let's them know every single day. A closeness neither of us have felt with anyone before. And somehow, just somehow, I know that it will continue like this for years and years to come. I love you, R <3
